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Memories & ReflectionsI don't even know where my great-grandfather Thomas O'Hara was born in Ireland or exactly when he arrived in Canada. He was married in Ottawa, Ontario November 6, 1843 at the age of 25. So he possibly arrived about 1839, in time to escape the Irish Potato Famine. It would be nice to know something of his trip up the Ottawa River from Montréal or did he come via the Rideau Canal? And what about his experiences as a pioneer in the Ottawa Valley? I can infer something of how he prospered by reading his will. Thomas O'Hara's descendents are all across North America as are the descendents of my mother's side of the family. Maybe in years to come someone related to me will wonder what my life was like, spanning most of the 20th century and into the 21st. As a matter of fact, there probably are things about my life that I have not considered important enough to tell my own children. So, in case it is of interest to anyone, here are some of the highlights.
My father worked for my mother's brother and his wife who owned a wholesale and retail grocery business in Silver Centre. My uncle's name was Hubert Brennan. He must have been proud of his name, judging by the sign on the roof of their store. My parents moved further north and opened a grocery store in a place with the unlikely name of Swastika. My first memories are from there. This is me aged
2. Unfortunately, my father was too kind hearted with credit when the Great Depression of the 30's hit. He lost the store and was lucky enough to get a job working five miles away at the Lake Shore Mine in Kirkland Lake . Lucky is a relative word. I can remember my mother pounding my father's back to get the muscles to relax. He was not used to "mucking" which is what they called shovelling rock underground in the dark and dampness for an eight hour shift in a gold mine. He peddled a bike back and forth the five miles to work. Imagine that in the freezing cold of a Northern Ontario Winter. He liked to write poetry but there is nothing from that period. In the middle of the village, next to the railway station was a very small garden in the middle of what might have been called a traffic circle, had there been enough traffic to warrant it. In the centre of the little park (about five yards square) was a flag pole with the Union Jack flying. Of course, at that time Canada did not have a flag of our own. We were all British subjects. The station master who happened to have been born in Germany liked flowers and had time to spare so he thoughtfully created a very attractive swastika of flowers, with the flag pole exactly in the middle. Very attractive to the train passengers and the townspeople. No one thought anything of this before 1939 and when the war came along no one could tell the station master to change the design and if he did it would have appeared that he actually had Nazi sympathies. The paradox continued well into the war when they changed the name of the town to Winston. The garden was not nearly so interesting after that. After the war the name Swastika was re-instituted but not the flower garden.
Connecting the Dots at Clear Lake Camp, @ 1937Even at 82, I'm still learning, and some of the lessons still have an element of surprise. Why didn't I see or understand this years ago? For example, I attended a barbecue at my niece's country home. Wandering through the crowd of relatives and friends was a very large dog, a breed I'd never seen before. My brother, Jack, identified it as a Zimbabwean Razorback. "In Africa, the Razorback is used to hunt tigers and, as a result, is bred to be utterly fearless," he said. This Razorback looked docile and behaved with total calm and serenity. "That," Jack pointed out, "is because it has no fear. Haven't you noticed how small dogs make lots of noise to pretend they aren't afraid?" It's so obvious. Why had I never connected those dots?
Brian and I had already done lots of camping, but it was wilderness camping with a prospector's tent, fishing, berry picking, canoeing, swimming, learning how not to get lost in the bush, and how to withdraw safely from unexpected encounters with bears. Mother took my three younger brothers and me to a lake and deposited us for the summer. Dad joined us on Sundays; he worked six days a week. This camp was entirely different, partly because the activities were organized for groups and supervised by adults and partly because the dynamics of groups are so different from being on your own in the bush. Brian and I enjoyed this one-time-only treat and remembered the highlights for many years. One thing I didn't remember at all was what happened during the first few minutes after we arrived. It was my cousin Bill, some 30 years' later, who asked me whether I remembered beating up the camp bully who tackled me as soon as I got off the bus. Why he chose me, I have no idea. Maybe it was because I was the tallest and skinniest of the new group and he needed to prove his superiority. He couldn't know my father had taught me how to handle bullies, when I was just seven and harassed by bigger, meaner boys on the way home from school. The key is to drive a fist into the solar plexus hard enough to reach the backbone or as close to it as you can get. Then, as the bully bends over gasping for breath, bring your knee up under the chin hard enough to try to lift that bully right off the ground. Then, and this is important, look around and ask calmly, "Who's next?" I didn't remember the incident at the camp at all. For a kid from the North, it was no big thing. But I did remember what happened when I reached the cabin where I'd been assigned. There were six double bunk beds and all the most desirable top bunks were already spoken for. Disappointed, I said to myself, "Gee, I've never slept in a top bunk." Six boys jumped down and urged me to take theirs. "What a congenial bunch," I thought, or words to that effect. They certainly were more polite and thoughtful than the kids in Kirkland Lake. I chose one of those nice top bunks and settled in. It wasn't until lights out that I discovered why everyone wanted a top bunk. It was so the occupants could spit down on the luckless inhabitants of the lower bunks. I thought this was pretty gross and said so. The spitting stopped immediately. For good. It wasn't until last week-end when, thanks to Jack, I finally connected the dots. And now that I think of it my father's lesson stood me in good stead, literally and figuratively, at many times in my life. It is a matter of inner confidence. When you know you can take care of yourself, when you are confident of your abilities, you don't need to huff and puff and brag and bark. You will meet life's challenges with quiet effect. Once in a while, though, a braggart or bully will buck the odds, and you'll find yourself dealing with the situation without even having to think about what to do. It's sort of like the magic of compound interest only better because no one can take it away from you. Once you have it, it's yours for life.
1944In 1955, I volunteered to speak to school students about my time in the navy. The Memory Project, with whom I volunteered, asked me to submit a short article. Here it is. Marching as to WarWorld War II taught me some vivid, lasting life lessons and brought me face to face with fear and mob rule. In 1939, I was living in Kirkland Lake, Ontario, a 13-year-old who sometimes had trouble collecting from customers to whom I delivered The Globe and Mail. One owed me for six weeks' worth. When I saw him marching off to war with 100 or so other recruits, I gave chase, hoping to embarrass him into paying me. He promised to send me the money, but he never did. Only now do I understand how financially desperate he must have been to stiff a kid for $1.08. As soon as I turned 18, now living in Brantford, I enlisted in the Navy, hoping to transfer into the Fleet Air Arm. (I desperately wanted to fly as my father had during World War I, but the Air Force had enough pilots.) I still remember the look of pride mixed with deep concern on my father's face and my mother's shock and tears when I announced the news.
As we arrived, the sailors poured into the dance hall. I stood to one side hoping to stay out of trouble, but one zoot suiter armed with a knife came straight for me. I managed to disarm him, then let him go. He and others tried to escape by climbing into the exposed rafters but were pursued by sailors who knocked the zoot suiters to the floor, then jumped on them. I can still hear the crunch of bones breaking. Not yet satisfied, the sailors stripped the zoot suiters and forced them to run naked in the snow through the gauntlet of the crowd now gathered outside. I picked up a wallet abandoned by a zoot suiter. Inside were his discharge papers. He'd been wounded overseas. Some coward . After basic training, I took a five-month signals course in St. Hyacinthe, east of Montreal. I'd opted for it to get as far as possible from something I really disliked-the noise of big guns. I learned how to send Morse code using a lamp, semaphore with hand-held flags, and flag combinations run up a mast. As soon as I graduated, I was sent to Halifax, Nova Scotia, to await a ship. The day I arrived, a Canadian frigate was torpedoed just outside the harbour. Every available vessel was dispatched to sink the German submarine and save our sailors. Our ships needed to maintain a certain speed to avoid being torpedoed themselves. They couldn't slow down, but they could throw rescue ropes. Later, a would-be rescuer told me they could see and hear sailors calling for help, but the water was so cold, they soon lost the strength to hold on to the ropes. None survived. A few weeks later, the War ended and the German submarine surfaced. Its crew surrendered and the submarine was conducted to the Halifax dockyard. It felt very strange to stand beside this deadly thing. On VE (Victory in Europe) Day, Halifax erupted in a riot, thanks to the Navy brass decision to close the dockyard beer hall. The celebrating sailors, already inebriated, poured into the streets, commandeered a streetcar, smashed its wooden seats, and sent the car off the tracks. Energized by this act of vandalism, the sailors continued on foot, heading downtown. Curious, I followed. Soon, the mob found a liquor store, helped themselves, and continued their quest for who knows what. Civilians joined them. When the crowd reached Eaton's, someone used a large pole as a battering ram to smash the department store's windows. The sailors seemed more interested in the act of destruction than theft, but I saw many civilians carrying armloads of clothes and filling cars with furniture. It was an ugly scene. Why didn't I try to stop the mob? In retrospect, I decided it wasn't fear that held me back; I just didn't know what to do. Next time, I decided, I would do something. Recently, I had an opportunity to act on my resolve. I saw a very big man beating a very slight woman on a side street in Toronto where I now live. A small crowd had gathered to watch. As I approached, I shouted, "Call the police!" The man fled and the woman was able to escape. Doing something, even if it seems very little can make a difference. Thanks to my time in the Navy, I learned this life lesson early. I'm grateful.
1948I took advantage of the government's re-establishment credits for ex-service personnel to go to university. I graduated with a BA from the University of Toronto. Looking back, it is difficult to believe I was so "wet behind the ears". I didn't give much thought to what I might do as a career and there were no guidance counsellors in those days. I sure could have benefited from some advice. Well, eventually, things worked out not too badly but it took a number of jumps before I landed on my feet.
A letter from my father from his death bed, 1955As I write this segment, the date is January 31, 2003. Last weekend I had my two daughters (Lyn and Kathryn,) to my place for dinner. The occasion was a visit from Lyn who now lives in Sedona, Arizona. She came to Toronto to see her brother Andrew who is in a palliative care hospital, dying of cancer. These are emotional times. I was reminded of a letter I received from my father at another emotional time. I received the letter the day after I got news of his death. The letter gives a good idea of who my father was. It was difficult maintaining my composure as I read it to Lyn and Kathy. The Ottawa General Hospital (He died on December 26th) Dear Austra & Frank: I have long neglected writing to you and am sorry such is the case but believe me I have often thought of you and wished you well. I have had a bit of a slow down with my heart which, if I thought of it at all, deemed indestructible. But things proved otherwise and now I am confined to bed and will probably be here until after Christmas. It is not very seriously impaired and the Dr. says if I take it easy it will last for years. But I will probably have to have absolute quiet for about a month. I had electrocardiographs. The first showed it was injured and the second will tell if it is healing or not. I have had no pain since it first hit me. Gerry has been accepted into the RCMP and will leave for Regina in the 28th inst. I am glad for his sake, although we will miss him but it has been his goal ever since he was ten years of age. One must let everyone live his own life I suppose. Alma was here this afternoon and she said you were coming here around the first of January. We will be so pleased to see you and our grandchildren. I hear Lyn has turned into a little beauty and Tommy is a quite a boy now. It is very nice for you to have a very nice home to raise them in. Alma tells me it is very nice. We will look forward to your arrival. Jack is coming home around the 1st of Jan. for two weeks and you will probably be here at the same time. Jack is a good raconteur and he will probably have some amazing stories to tell, some true and some out of pure wool. It is hard to tell whether the colored threads are true or straight off the sheep's back. They make us enjoy the picture true of not and I am looking forward to his arrival. He used to get a great kick out of some story he would tell his mother just to get her going and she would wind it all up by saying, "Oh you darned fool." I have made a lot of starts on poetry and finished a few. I see the picture I want to paint but it is awfully difficult to pick the right words to paint it. I can understand that no poet or painter or artist is satisfied with his work. Only Divine aid could inspire the great poems, music and paintings which the centuries produced. For instance I can see a mist rising over a falls to disappear and reappear in a cloud which the wind blows to some parched place and starts a new growth. In my mind I can see a kind deed doing the same thing for universal benefit. Or love given to one, spreading out like the mist to disappear and come back in an unexpected place or form. Does not the happy sparkle in a child's eye put a sparkle in your own and spread out to a whole community. In the army it is called morale and where it is present men will laugh even under the most dreadful conditions. Could the crashing water coursing down its destined path sometimes calm and sometimes swiftly till it disintegrates into mist over the falls while nature roars with laughter when it rises into mist. Could this be the nature's poet telling us all about it and will I fall over my falls before I can rise in mist too? To tell the truth If I could I would. Perhaps that is why poets disappear so silently and their song is not heard until a generation or more has passed. Perhaps this sounds despondent to you. If so it was not meant. In fact the contrary. it is just that I would love to write a poem with these thoughts in it but I think without God's help I'll never be able. Everything that exists does not have to. Best of love, Dad
I'll add some of my father's poems, one of these days.
Business Career, 1953 - 1998Following my graduation from the University of Toronto in 1948 I held a number of unsatisfactory jobs until 1953, when I joined Moore Business Forms Ltd. as a salesman. I spent some 16 years there and was quite successful as a salesman, sales supervisor and latterly a Toronto branch manager. Looking back, I realize that I left as a by-product of my marriage break-up. I joined my cousin, Tom McLaughlin, in a new enterprise that arranged to place audio visual projectors in Canadian embassies around the world. The object was to have communities, provinces, and the federal government place industrial development oriented promotional audio visual programs around the world. In a word, this was not successful.
In 1998 I decided to retire. This was an opportunity for me to 'see the world' but I didn't have the funds to do so in any kind of style. When I had O'Hara Systems Inc. I had staff who actually did the programming of websites. One opportunity to 'see the world' was as a volunteer. The Canadian Executive Service Organization (CESO) sends volunteers to developing countries. Most of the volunteers are retirees. I was probably the only one with expertise in website development. I knew about website development in general and certainly how to make good use of them but not actually how to program them. So I bought some html editing software and a graphics creation program and spent some months learning how to use them. There are several definitions of an expert. I hardly qualified as an expert but I knew more than my clients. As you will see from the Volunteer part of this website, I did get around the world and enjoyed the process.
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Frank & Marion |
The brothers: Jack, Frank, Gerry |
Marion and I have had some wonderful vacations. However, this year our vacation was particularly enjoyable.
In mid-October, 2006, we flew to Budapest and spent three days there walking and gawking, then boarded Amadeus Waterways' Amadagio for a two-week cruise from Budapest to Amsterdam via the Danube, the Mainz, and the Rhine rivers. After some 80 canal locks and 15 or so stops in mostly tiny medieval villages, as well as Vienna and Cologne, we disembarked in Amsterdam and spent three days there walking and gawking. We had fabulous weather on the cruise and left Europe just as a fierce rainstorm was moving in. The river cruise was great. The ships are small (to fit in the locks and under the many low-lying bridges). Ours had about 135 passengers and 50 staff (nautical, housekeeping, and hospitality combined). The atmosphere was excellent, the shore tours were very well planned and guided, and the food was excellent and beautifully presented with modest servings that made it possible to enjoy three or four courses without subsequent waddling or groaning. We enjoyed free local wines along the way (served with lunch and dinner).
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With another couple from the USA we put together a song to thank the crew on our last evening on board. Fred (the American) and I did the crooning. Click here to see it. (It is a 6 minute video and may take a while to download, depending on your Internet connection.) |
My brothers and I inherited several patented mining claims near
Kirkland Lake in Northern Ontario. It's a long drive but the fishing is good
and the quiet is intense. Our cabin is tiny but we have the end of Beaverhouse
Lake all to ourselves. I felt that the lake in front of the cabin was a
suitable place to deposit Andrew's and Tom's ashes.
I didn't spread them but simply dropped the boxes into the water. So
they rest on the bottom, until the cardboard boxes disintigrate.
This year (2006) my brother Jack surprised me with a plaque dedicated to Andy and Tom. We installed it on a rock face below the cabin and facing the water. I was touched by Jack's thoughtfulness.
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Two other people (younger and much more professionally musical than I) and I have formed a trio. We perform at seniors' residences and such places. It's fun and the audiences enjoy our efforts. I sing, Anita Gaide plays piano and Andrew Zarins plays clarinet and saxophone. Click here to see the flyer we've developed. As of fall of 2009, we are a quartet with the addition of a second singer, Pat Huff. That evens things up with two males and two females.
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Starting in January, I took upon myself the task of spearheading a movement to make a neighbourhood "desert" presentable, if not beautiful. It's in front of a police station next to our condo building. It has taken all the persistence that I practised as an entrepreneur and now looks like something good will happen. It is surprising how many facets of the municipal government can be involved in such a project. I've been in touch with all of them - so far as I know.
There are particularly good reasons for beautifying this area. Anyone taking the subway to the Art Gallery of Ontario (AGO) or Ontario College of Art and Design (OCAD) needs to walk across this "desert". It would be wonderful to have a European style plaza here with some appropriate touches of the arts.
I sent this article to a local free newspaper in the hope of lining up additional support. I took the photo from the roof of our condo building.
Well, as of the end of August 2008, we're making progress. The councillor for this ward, Adam Vaughan, has agreed to allocate development funds from a local project towards the cost of the square. Also, we have the approval of the police subject to some concerns for their security. OCAD (The Ontario College of Art & Design) one of our neighbours, has been supportive all along and have agreed to develop a design for the square and a budget. They will start to work on this in the fall. So the project, which we are tentatively calling Jane Jacobs Square, is becoming a reality. (Having heard that Beijing's Tianamen Square is the largest in the world and ours is possibly the smallest and the fact that we are on the edge of Toronto's downtown China Town I considered the name "Teenymen Square". Does that qualify me for a cornball prize?)
It's now April, 2009 and not much has happened. However, hope springs repeatedly in some people. Now another part of OCAD is involved and it looks promissing.
It's now 2010 and I'm still working away on this project. This Spring The Ontario College of Art and Design (OCAD), in response to my prodding, had a charette/contest for their graduating students to develop a design for the proposed square. Some 25 groups of students created quite attractive designs. Click here to access a number of the entries: http://www.ocad.ca/students/2010_design_comp_photo_gallery.htm
The city of Toronto has designated Dundas St. for upgrading in a serious way. 'My' project falls within their parameters. My hopes have new life. I'm to be part of a group examining various ideas. We'll see whether this is my great opportunity.
By 2008, Lyn had been living in Sedona with her husband, Michael, for over ten years. She has an interesting way of earning her living. She has clients in the U.S., Canada and Brazil with whom she deals over the phone. Lyn has a special capacity to relate to people's personal problems and to help them to resolve those problems. For more information on this you might like to check out her website at www.lynohara.com.
In case you are unaware of the unusual red rock formations that make Sedona such a popular place here are a few photos.
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With the Olympics in China making
news, I was asked by my good friend, Griff Thompson, to make a presentation at
a local Kiwanis Club meeting about my work in China. With my background I
couldn't simply talk about it. I had to make use of some of the video I shot in
my 3 assignments (1999, 2001, 2003) and organize the facts and figures into a
PowerPoint presentation.
It took a good deal of effort to organize the information; so I took the opportunity to present it at several other venues. Then I was asked to send the images of the facts and figures because many found them sufficiently interesting that they wanted to review them. Again, I couldn't leave well enough alone. The video part of my PP presentation was a rather big a file to include as an email attachment and some commentary was warranted to go with the factual images. I removed the video, added a few still photos and inserted some commentary.
If you'd like to have a look at this presentation, you can download it by clicking http://www.ohara.com/VolunteerinChina.pps If you don't have PowerPoint on your system, you'll need to download the PowerPoint Viewer. Click here. If you have only a dial-up connection, sad to say, you'd better give up now.
Interesting how much hair is lost in 60
years
Interesting, too, how few from my class are still around!
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As a sort to Christmas card, I prepared a 'story' of this year's activities: vacation, voluntary work, etc. Click here to have a look.
On a not so pleasant note, my brother, Jack, died last summer. Jack was seven years younger than I. He managed with type 2 diabetes for 20 years or so. For years my three brothers and I spent a week each summer at our cabin near Kirkland Lake in Northern Ontario communing with nature, fixing up winter's depredations, playing chess and other games and even catching some fish. My brother, Brian, died some years ago and Gerry was less enthusiastic about the rustic life but Jack and I kept up the tradition by ourselves for the last ten years or so. It's a major change in my life not to take this annual excursion. My formative years were spent in Kirkland Lake. Now I'll probably not see it again. Not that there's much to see or that the cabin was anything but rustic, but it is a wrench to know that something fundamental is no longer a part of my life.
Brian, Gerry, Frank & Jack at the cabin - 1990 |
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Kelly's Summer Barbeque - 2008 |
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These days, Frank's prime focus is families dealing with a member with addiction or mental health issues. Recently, he was elected Vice-President of The Board of Directors of The Family Council, a not-for-profit organization funded by CAMH (The Centre for Addiction and Mental Health). The Family Council represents the voices of families (broadly defined) struggling to deal with relatives who have an addiction or mental health disorder. As well as providing support to families on a personal, day-to-day basis, The Family Council also acts as a watch-dog on care and treatment and keeps the concerns of families front and centre at CAMH.
Addictions and mental health, Frank reminds us, are not to be taken lightly. Some 20% of the Canadian population has a mental illness. The costs-financial, social, and emotional-are a huge burden for everyone, including the Canadian health care system.
There are several good reasons for attending Frank's presentation of facts and figures and videos (apart from the fact that it is bound to be informative and interesting).
In the meantime, you might like to check out www.thefamilycouncil.ca.
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Way back in 1965 I was in a serious car accident in Mexico. I had been travelling with my family through the USA and across the desert to Phoenix, Arizona, down the west coast of Mexico and across Mexico to Mexico City. All the time I was careful to wear a seat belt. I didn't bother to do it up, though, after stopping for directions to a famous archeological site just outside Mexico City. I was only five minutes away. A fateful five minutes. We had a head-on collision with a very large dump truck. My chest bent the steering wheel about 30 degrees and I shattered the windshield with my head. I guess it pays to be head strong. I survived, obviously. After several days in a jail-type hospital (Napoleonic Code: guilty until proven innocent) a young intern came to my bed. When he found that I was not a Gringo but a Canadian he said, "Mais je parle français beaucoup mieux que je parle anglais." (For the unilingual: "But I speak French much better than English.")
As a typical English speaking Canadian I did not have a working command of French. Lying on my bed of pain. with not much to occupy my mind I decided, since I thought of myself as a "citizen of the world" I ought to be able to speak at least two languages. Being a Canadian the two languages certainly ought to be English and French.
If
nothing else I'm persistent. I've been working at becoming bilingual for all
these years since. I've made progress, particularly since I retired. I belong
to several different groups where I can work on improving my French.
Our monthly group we call the Franco Flaneurs. We meet once a month at one another's homes for a pot-luck Sunday brunch. I'm old enough to be the father of most of these fellow francophiles. It's interesting how a common interest can bring people together. Age is not necessarily important, certainly that's true as far as I'm concerned and I believe that's the case with the other Franco Flaneurs as well. In the summer we've often gone on a bicycle/picnic sojourn in one or another local park. Here's a photo from one of our outings.
I am also active in some other groups:
Top of the list is French conversation at the First Unitarian Congregation each Friday afternoon for two hours. Claude Marchand is the volunteer from the congregation who leads us through articles from L'actualité. We take turns reading a couple of paragraphs in French and then translating them. We also discuss some of the matters that arise from the articles. This is the most rewarding group to which I belong. Every week Claude makes a list of words that we found challenging. The next week we review these. This way, I should be adding vocabulary at the rate of 30 to 50 new words or expressions a week. If only my memory were that good!!
I also belong to Le Centre
Francophone de Toronto. They have various activities organized around helping
recent Francophone immigrants to Toronto. I mentor immigrants (one at a time) -
helping them to prepare a good résumé and providing pointers on
job-searching in Toronto - Central Library facilities, relevant websites,
coaching for interviews, helping with their English, etc. The fellow with me in
my office is Leki Ymele, orginally from Cameroon.
Twice a month I meet with a group at the Royal Ontario Museum. We visit one or another exhibit in the museum and are lectured on the content by a French speaking volunteer. That lasts about 1/2 hour. Then we adjourn to a room where we usually take turns reading from information on whatever we've viewed and discussing new vocabulary. I've been doing this for ten years or more. I ought to be an expert on the museum. We keep finding something new though.
After all these years I've only reached the point where, as they say in French, "Je me débrouille." (I can manage.) Nevertheless, I'm getting better. Given another forty years I should be quite bilingual, n'est-ce pas?

I know we were poor, certainly by today's standards. However, until recently, I never actually thought of our family as poverty stricken. Actually, that was normal in the "dirty thirties". In this photo I was in grade 2 but, obviously the teacher had a lot on her hands. (I'm in the middle of the front row, with blond hair and a big white collar.) No one would say we looked prosperous. Later, though, when we were each given a half pint of milk each day, I realized that some of my school mates usually didn't have breakfast. Our family was never quite that desperate but my parents had a serious and difficult job feeding and clothing four fast-growing boys.
My earliest memories were in a town called Swastika (named after the Indian symbol for good luck). Dad had a general store - one of the two in the town. When the depression hit in 1929, dad was able to carry on for a couple of years. However, he couldn't bring himself to deny credit to families with young children. The desperate families were not to blame for dad's not being able to pay his suppliers. Those were desperate and evil times. The competitive store didn't grant credit and survived.
Dad managed to get a job working underground in the Lake Shore Mine in Kirkland Lake, about 5 miles away. The mine ran 3 shifts a day, 6 days a week. Dad road a bike to work. Not too bad for the daytime ride - in the summer. The winter and the night were something else. I recall him crediting our prayers for not getting soaked in a storm. He claimed that it rained all around him. Probably the prayers were unreliable because we moved to Kirkland Lake. Dad could now walk to work. After a couple of years he managed to get moved to work on the surface where they framed the timber supports for the underground tunnels. Much less dangerous too. At school we would often feel the shudder of what was called a rock burst - a cave-in. Often this was just an area that was no longer being worked. But those of us with fathers at work underground had our own internal shudder.
It was common for stores to grant credit because very few had cash for children's shoes, food, etc. Pay day was not a happy occasion. The rent came first. There was never enough to pay for all the other debts. I vividly remember my mother crying every payday. The frustration of having to rob Peter to pay Paul happened every two weeks.
When I was about nine or ten years old my brother Brian (two years younger) and I scrounged for whatever money we could uncover to help with family. One job was to go through garbage to find six and eleven quart baskets that we could sell at the Saturday market. We got 3 cents for the smaller and 5 cents for the larger baskets. Women shopping at the market had to buy a basket because the farmers didn't provide any shopping bags. I graduated from that job to selling chickens. Farmers who sold eggs would often have one or two hens that were no longer laying eggs. I rented a stall and bought the "old-timer" hens for something like 25 cents each. I offered these at $2 but never expected to get that much. I learned to haggle from the Eastern European women who were real experts. They would fatten up the hens in the backyard.
One day a woman actually agreed to pay $2, not an Eastern European obviously. I was delighted and I'm sure had a big smile on my face as I handed her the live hen, upside down with legs tied. "No, no", she said, "I don't want it live." I'd never even been on a farm let alone killed a chicken but for $1.75 profit I was sure ready to learn. I borrowed an axe, took the hen outside, found a tree stump, spread the hen's neck out and swung the axe. I had done lots of wood chopping so the axe was not a problem. However, when the hen's head flew off in one direction and the body flopped all over the place in another I had a passing thought that I'd earned my profit. My first entrepreneurial exercise but not my last and never so bloody or so shocking.
The forest was not far outside Kirkland Lake; so it was not a particularly big job for Brian and myself to fetch the family Christmas tree. It was hard tramping through the snow though. We brought back two at once; so we could sell the second one to a neighbour. We learned that trees that look a normal size in the bush are far too big after the struggle to get them home.
The most regular job I had was as a Globe and Mail paper boy. The paper left Toronto around midnight to arrive at Kirkland Lake about 1 PM the next day. I picked up my papers at that time and delivered quite a few of them at a fast trot on the way to school, for 1:30. The rest I delivered after school. Delivering newspapers in Northern Ontario in the winter, to use an inapt phrase, is no picnic. First of all it is pitch dark after about 3 in the afternoon, secondly there are some fierce storms, thirdly freezing temperature is the norm. I remember coming home covered with snow and the comfort of mother making me a cup of cocoa as I warmed myself in front of the wood stove in the kitchen.
However, it wasn't all hard times, besides, I never had anything to compare against; so I never felt hard done by. Needless to say, we didn't have a cottage. However, mother took us four boys camping when my brother Gerry (the youngest) was still in diapers. We had two prospector type tents. My uncle Tommy had a car and drove us out to one or another of the many lakes in the region where we stayed for most of the summer. Dad visited us most weekends on his Sunday off. (He worked six days a week for 13 years at the mine and never had a vacation. They went on strike for one week's vacation and lost the strike.) We cooked on an open fire, fished and picked berries and practically lived off the land. When I was about 12 or 13 and Brian about 11 we camped on our own for a couple of years, hitch-hiking in to town each Saturday so we could go to Mass on Sunday and then hitch-hiking back with provisions for the next week. I didn't realize till much later that this was probably our parents' innovative way to prevent us from getting into trouble with some of the other young people in our neighbourhood. When I think of the protective attitude of typical parents today I wonder at the difference and suspect that we learned a lot about self-reliance.
This is my grade nine class in Kirkland Lake, 1939.
That's me, age 14, in the back row - three from the left, to the right of the
teacher. I had now graduated from paper boy to working part-time, first at
Kresge's and then at the local A&P Store. My wages were a wonderful 24
cents an hour. However, in those days a good-sized chocolate bar was 5 cents.
At the end of my next school year, dad had lost the strike at the mine and travelled south to find a job. He went to Welland, Ontario where he found work as a carpenter. WW II was in mid-stride and that put an end to the depression. That year, 1942, I turned 16. The family was still in Kirkland Lake. I joined dad for the summer on a construction site as a labourer. The only problem was that when it rained, we had to sit it out and didn't get paid. After a whole summer's work, at the sumptuous rate of 50 cents an hour, having paid for my board and room and my train fare back and forth I only had enough money to buy myself a $35 suit. Suits were de rigeur in those days. That was my second one. I bought my first with the money from a Globe and Mail subscription contest I won two years before. Actually, from the time I was about nine or ten years of age I bought most of my own clothes. I also paid for such things as dental work, probably starting about age 12 or 13. A filling cost $1 in those days plus $1 if freezing was required. I didn't get the freezing. I guess that helped form my life-long habit of being careful with money and early practice with making difficult (painful) decisions.
We were poor but we children did have a number of advantages. We had parents who really loved and cared for us and set a good example of honesty, kindness and responsibility. My parents, as far as I can recall, never used the word "love" but they showed it in their daily lives both for each other and for us children. Mother was careful to provide us a balanced diet, even if it was with the cheapest cuts of meat and a limited assortment of vegetables. I recall asking the butcher for a bone for the dog. I'm sure that kind man knew that there would be no meat left for the dog. We grew up healthy in body and spirit and learned how to "stand on our own feet". I am grateful.
When I was about 11 years of age I overheard a conversation between my mother and the priest who supervised the altar boys. I was one of his "stars". They were discussing how I would become a priest. I interrupted them to say, "But I'm not going to be a priest."
"Why not." my mother said, "Because I want to have children." I answered. They both laughed. "What's so funny?" I thought.
In retrospect, that was probably an indication of my not wanting to live by other's expectations. Another factor in my very gradual evolution away from my religious upbringing was my curiosity. Even as a very young child exploring the nature around our home just outside a village in Northern Ontario I was fascinated by the frogs, birds, etc. When I learned to read I haunted the public library in Kirkland Lake where we had moved. There was no money to buy books in those depression years, so the library's books were a great boon to my developing mind.
During secondary school years, my time in the navy and then at university I gradually questioned more and more of what I had accepted as "the truth". An analogy might be of a person held down by a thousand strings. Any one of them easy to break but all of them together quite capable of holding me firmly in place. It took a long time to break all the strings.
I found it difficult to accept everything on faith. Why this was the case I don't know. I remember discussing this with a priest, Fr. Sullivan, a much revered priest at St. Michael's College at the University of Toronto. "When you cross the street you have faith that you're going to reach the other side don't you?" He didn't find it a satisfactory answer when I replied, "Yes, but I avoid the traffic."
I well remember when I introduced my parents to, Austra, the woman I intended to marry. "But she's not a Catholic." mother blurted out. We got married in a Catholic chapel. Marrying a non-Catholic in a regular church was not permitted.
As a child I certainly accepted authority, whether of my parents, the church or professionals such as doctors or almost anyone older than I. When I was in the navy I felt, just because someone wore an officer's uniform didn't mean that he should hold power of life or death over me. Mind you, that didn't mean that I didn't avoid being sent to the brig. Gradually I arrived at the point where I questioned any authority before accepting it. Of course, that certainly doesn't mean that I think it is permissible to go against logical societal norms, like paying taxes, driving on the right side of the road or a thousand and one normal situations in daily life. I have a responsibility to support people with whom I agree and, at the very least, to avoid those with whom I disagree. For example, when it comes time for an election I investigate whom I should support and having decided do so, not just with my vote but by canvassing or whatever other means are at my disposal. A number of years ago, for example, I designed and produced a website for my federal MP and I canvassed on his behalf at each election.
My "belief system" involves doing what I reasonably can to make this world a better place. With that in mind I have volunteered to work in developing countries around the world. Mind you I also enjoyed travelling to exotic countries, meeting diverse people and helping them as best I could. I also believe it is important to do what I can here at home and volunteer to help newcomers to Toronto from francophone countries. Of course I benefit too with the opportunity to practice French. My wife, Marion, and I have also been able to help a couple of immigrant Chinese families. No improvement to our Mandarin, though. A percentage increase on zero is still zero!
It seems that most religious people find it difficult to impossible to believe that others could honestly not believe as they do. Christians in the later middle ages massacred 30% of the European population (30 Years War) on behalf of their "loving" God - the same one on each side! Militant Muslims believe non-believers, even non-believers of their particular sect of Muslim, should convert or die, just like the perpetrators of the Inquisition. Militant Sikhs feel it is OK to blow up a plane full of innocent people. However, I don't reject religion because some aspects of it are evil. I just cannot bring myself to accept the basic tenets of any religion. I do have a sort of "faith" though. I believe the world is evolving in a positive and realistic direction. There are days I despair, such as with Global Warming. If we can deal with that, though, it could mean that we are on a path towards a world that doesn't need the crutch of religion and with which we can have a genuine hope for a world dominated by "goodwill towards man", to coin a phrase. This doesn't mean that I'm against organized religion. It does mean that I'm against any role for it in government.
When I was in the Navy, towards the end of WW II, I had my first occasion to vote. I believe I have never missed an opportunity since, either federally, provincially or municipally. I have, at one or another time, voted for each of the major parties. I have also canvassed many times for my preferred candidate in my constituency. So I guess I qualify as a serious supporter of our democracy, as well as being a "floating voter", the type of person whom each of the parties must attract. I cannot be taken for granted like those who are "dyed in the wool" supporters of a particular party. I have also, on occasion, interviewed the candidate I might support. When I lived in the Don Valley West riding, for example, I met with Liberal John Godfrey, when he first ran for Member of Parliament. I was sufficiently impressed that I volunteered to create a website for him. That was when websites were the exception rather than the rule. I also canvassed for him during several subsequent election campaigns. More recently, I worked for NDP member Olivia Chow.
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In ancient times slavery was practiced universally. Supposing we continue to develop machines to replace human labour, will robots eliminate the need for menial labour to be done by humans? What about all the people who are unable to do sophisticated chores?
Actually, in Europe and North America (not including Mexico) we depend on immigrants to do the work that the rest of us avoid and that pays little. The only reason we still employee people to do many jobs is because they can do so cheaper than machines. I recall when I was a student working as a pick and shovel labourer. A group of us were leaning on our shovels when the straw boss came along and yelled at us. "Get back to work you #%^*s or that machine is going to do you out of a job." I thought, "What a good idea".
Of course, the problem was - I needed the meagre earnings. Nowadays, when was the last time you saw someone digging a foundation with a pick and shovel? That's how we improve productivity, of course and we want to improve productivity continuously. Think of all the work being sent off-shore to India, China, Sri Lanka, etc.
The logical end is more robots and more sophisticated robots. The Japanese are already working on them. Even very rich people have few servants any more. Fifty years ago John Kenneth Galbraith wrote The Affluent Society where he raised the basic question "For eons we supported the idle rich. Now we'll have to support the idle poor." But with increases in productivity, i.e. increases in overall wealth, must so many people be poor?
Probably we could afford to support the idle poor but not if the rich take up all the benefits of increased productivity. On the other hand, there are jobs such as caring for the elderly and young children, that are not likely to be done well by robots. How about paying a living wage to people doing such important work? Can we afford not to?
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